Mantra

India Arie, presenca constante no meu carro. A melhor musica pra comecar o dia. Todos os dias. Aperta ali pra ouvir, porque eu ainda nao sei como postar uma musica aqui diretamente. E ja me foi ensinado isso milhoes de vezes, mas eu acho que eu tenho que ser burra em alguma coisa pra variar um pouco...


I choose

Because you never know where life is going to take you
And you can't change where you've been -
But today, I have the opportunity to choose.

Here I am now looking at 30
and I've got so much to say.
Gotta get this off of my chest,
I've gotta let it go today.
I was always too concerned
about what everybody would think.
But I can't live for everybody -
I gotta live my life for me.

I have reached a fork in the road of my life and
Ain't nothing gonna happen unless I decide.

And I choose
To be the best that I can be.
I choose
To be authentic in everything
I do.
My past don't dictate who I am.
I choose.

I've been through some painful things
I thought that I would never make it though.
Filled up with shame
From the top of my head
To the soles of my shoes.
I've put myself in so many chaotic cirmstances.
By the grace of God
I've been given so many second chances.

But today I've decided to let it all go.
I'm dropping these bags,
**I'm making room for my joy.

And I choose
To be the best that I can be.
I choose
To be authentic in everything
I do.
My past don't dictate who I am.
I choose.

Because you never know where life is going to take you
And you can't change where you've been
But today, I have the opportunity to choose.

** Release the guilt about why things have been the way they been
'Cause life is gonna do what it do.
And every day, I have the opportunity to choose.

From this day forward I'm going to be
Exactly who I am.
I don't need to change the way that I live
Just to get a man.
Even had a talk with my mama,
And I told her today I'm grown.
This day forward, every decision that I make
Will be My Own.

And I choose
To be the best that I can be.
And I choose to be courageous in everything
I do.
My past don't dictate who I am.
I choose.

And I choose to be the best that I can be.
I choose to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am.
I choose.

Because you never know where life is going to take you
And you can't change where you've been -
But today, I have the opportunity to choose.

It happens

It does happen to everybody. Some people seem to have a natural ability to deal with certain things. I lost my grandmother three weeks ago. I can't talk about it to anybody. Not even here. English is my no feeling language. Which is funny, since I talk to "him" in English all the time.

Anyways. She is gone and some times, in the middle of the day it hits me. I will never see her again. I will never smell her again (she had such a particular and familiar smell) She is gone and this is forever. Nothing I can do will ever change it and I have to live with the pain.

2009 foi definitivamente um ano de merda.

Aromas

Eu gosto muito de cheiros. Como gosto de palavras. Algumas pessoas tem um cheiro super especifico que amo. Eu lembro do cheirinho da minha vó, eu adoro sentir o cheirinho do meu namorado, eu lembro do cheiro do meu ex namorado...

Enfim. Isso tudo só pra dizer que homens parecem que não entendem muito de cheiros. Um ex namorado meu (não o que tinha o cheiro maravilhoso, outro) só sentia cheiro de tutti frutti. Todos os meus perfumes, todos os meus batons, todos os meus sabonetes, tudo acabava com cheiro de tutti frutti. O meu atual, melancia. Tudo é watermelon. OK, let´s be fair. Nem tudo é melancia, só os body splashes que eu uso antes de dormir. Mas todos eles, mesmo o de grapefruit ou o de flores.

Weird.

Pois é, eu gosto tanto de cheiros que eu não consigo dormir sem tomar banho e passar um body splash. Dormir cheirosinha é tudo de bom. Mesmo que o cheiro seja de tutti frutti ou watermelon.

The better half or the good enough half?

Em algum momento da relação, todo mundo se questiona se aquela realmente é a pessoa ideal. Um ou vários defeitos parecem ser insuportáveis. A impressão que dá é que a única saída é uma pessoa nova, sem esses defeitos que, ao longo dos anos, se tornaram aparentement insuportáveis.

No fim do dia, depois de procurar um pouco, a maioria das pessoas vai se dar conta de que, defeitos, todos têm. Defeitos novos só pioram as coisas. O trabalho que vai dar descobrir novos defeitos e se acostumar com eles não vale a pena.

Let´s stick to the same old and deal with it.

ps: How wrong is it to try to find a little fun to fill in the times of boredom or anger?