It happens

It does happen to everybody. Some people seem to have a natural ability to deal with certain things. I lost my grandmother three weeks ago. I can't talk about it to anybody. Not even here. English is my no feeling language. Which is funny, since I talk to "him" in English all the time.

Anyways. She is gone and some times, in the middle of the day it hits me. I will never see her again. I will never smell her again (she had such a particular and familiar smell) She is gone and this is forever. Nothing I can do will ever change it and I have to live with the pain.

2009 foi definitivamente um ano de merda.